By Jude Levy
90 Degrees and Humidity Like a WALL for the 3rd day in the row.
Yesterday the air conditioner broke; not only in my car but in my home. Typically this would send me down a hole but I decided to try something different.
Inside Voice: Good thing you spent 5 years running and practicing in a hot yoga studio mixed with just pretend you live in Costa Rica.
I convinced myself that I would survive this temporary discomfort.
I removed every piece of clothing, jumped into my bed and scrolled through my sound healing options…The Winner: 888 MHZ Sounds of Abundance.
I wake up sweating dripping wet with a slight cool from the ceiling fan, ahhhh I survived the night with no air conditioner. A little pat on the back. And then the ego took the drivers seat and my whole morning began with overwhelm, stress and anxiety. YUCK
The day of plans I had quickly unraveled and I had to cancel beach plans with a yogi friend visiting from NY. I hated every minute of giving up a day of fun in the sun to deal with adult responsibilities.
I AM OFF BALANCE
Insert Positive Affirmations and Gratitude.
Good Job, Jude
I had just spent a tremendous amount of energy/days on shadow work, inner child healing, reiki, body work and then some. So many seeds had been planted…
Why was I so angry? What is the problem????
I found myself frustrated like a hormonal teenager and what I wanted to do was throw a fit like no one had ever seen. My familiar friend…ANGER was running through my body.
My mind was scrambling…
I screamed out loud “What the Fuck? You are doing everything you are supposed to be doing”
Pity party enters the room
“Why the fuck is this journey so hard? When do you get a day off? Where is the plateau? GRRRRRRR.
Shadow shows up; What am I doing wrong? Why don’t you give yourself any credit.
Inner Child screams: I want to be heard! I need to be seen, spoken to and healed.
My soul spoke louder than all of it.
Silly girl you need to SURRENDER.
A not so gentle reminder from the universe that we are in control of absolutely nothing; except for our breath for as long as our human body allows.
In a frantic manner I was trying to “think” my way out of this…WRONG ANSWER